Roller Coaster Ride

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For the past couple of months, I thought to myself,
when will this ride ever end?
When you go through a break up there are so many
ups and downs. You don't know if you're coming or going.
I don't think I have ever experienced such a roller coaster of emotions.
And of course the moment you stop thinking about how to get off, is when it happens.
The ride will end at some point on its own.
I also wondered, how would I feel when I meet the next man
in my life?
Would I be scared and shut him out? Or would I be open to taking a chance?
Well I now have the answer, and I'm pleased to say...
It looks like I'm open to taking a chance!
It's all very new and who knows where it will go.
But at least I know that I'm not afraid to get back on the roller coaster.


                                                                            Amy xo

A New Year

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So a new year is here and I am very excited to see what 2011 will bring.
I must say 2010 had to have been one of the highlights in my life.
Even though it ended with heartache.
But somehow it makes me want to love and be loved even more.
Once you experience love, you just want to keep on having that feeling.
The nice thing about starting over is you can be whatever want,
To whoever you want.
So Happy New Year everybody!
I hope everybody finds LOVE, happiness and whatever else you're looking for.


                                                                              Amy xo

The Bartender

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Why you never date the bartender. 
Because as soon as he gives you that drink, 
That magic potion, that will fill you up with joy, 
In the end that's all he's giving you, a temporary high. 
Watch out because as soon as you turn your head for just even a second,
He's on to the next...

 Watch out girls...

                                                                             Amy xo 

Funny Love

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It's funny how someone can make you a believer in love,
Is the same someone who can make you believe less then before.
But that's ok because it now forces us to believe in the most important
thing...ourselves.
And then it all comes full circle. Now that we can start believing in ourselves,
we can now believe in love again, without fear. 

Even though I found and lost love, I still believe in love. In order to
find it again, I must mourn the love for my friend. Everyday is work to
escape thoughts of him, unfortunately I can't escape my dreams. I miss
him. 

                                                                           Amy xo 

Moving Forward

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So people say moving forward, to move on, is the hardest part. But moving forward is the easy part. Next thing you know days go by, months go by and then years. Time doesn't stop for us, no matter what we're going through. We move forward without having to do anything. The hard part is not looking back. At what point do we stop looking back at something that's not there anymore? Or even worse, something that you're not sure even existed. How do we learn not to look back?

And if/when we get to the point when we can tell ourselves that we've moved on, did we really move on or did we just learn how to live with it? We might never be able to figure out the answers to these questions, but these are questions we should ask ourselves. 

What we don't want to happen, is to be holding on to something for years to come. It's fine to hold on to happy memories, but the tricky part is to know the difference between memories and  the reality of letting go of the past. 

                                                                        
                                                                          Amy xo

F.E.A.R

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Freedom Extracted Accompanying Regret

Our freedom is taken away when we give into fear.

Why I think we stay in unhealthy relationships and have less of a chance at a happy future. The reason is FEAR, fear of being ourselves. Someone told me the other day that their partner completed them. I don't think it's our partner who completes us, only we can complete ourselves. Our partner is simply there to fulfill a want in our life. We all want love, support and encouragement from a partner, that's normal. But in many cases we stay with people who don't even provide the things we want. Do we really care so little about ourselves?

So I ask you people out there, who believe that their partner completes them. What happens when we lose that loved one? Does that mean we can't survive on our own? Of course we can. This is why it is so important to work on ourselves and learn from our mistakes. I know we are not perfect, but we should all try to live a happy and healthy life.
So many people are so concerned with what other people think and make decisions about their lives based on other peoples feelings.

Then comes regret, because somewhere down the line we realize we made the wrong decision. Always try to be true to yourself, it's ok to be a little selfish when it come to making yourself happy. I like to live my life ,my way. I don't really see it as a bad thing. Why is it wrong to live your life the way you want to? I'm not saying that we shouldn't be considerate or compassionate towards others. I'm just saying at the end of the day, we have to live with our decisions not them, because they have their own fears and regrets to deal with. And I know what some of you are thinking, "but our decisions do affect other people". Yes they do, but it's now up to them to figure out what to do with the choice we made. Yes they might be sad, happy, angry or even  hurt. Who knows how they'll react, we can't be afraid of that.

Not only do we have the fear of letting someone or something go. But we also have the fear of wanting someone or something back in our lives. Over and Over again we let pride and fear get in the way of the possibility of happiness. Just remember that regret is worse than taking a chance, so take a chance.

If we always stay true to ourselves, we'll always be fair to others.

                                                                            Amy xo

The Game of Life

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Life is like a maze. When you get to a dead end you don't just stand there

and give up, you turn around and find another way out.

That is what LIFE is all about. To find the strength to never give up on yourself,

no matter how impossible it may seem.

We all have to go through detours and frustrations. Ultimately the goal is

to make it out with pride and dignity.

But don't go too fast, take your time, be patient with yourself. Try

to remember where you went wrong, so you don't make the same mistakes.

Because when you find your way out of the maze, the game of life is over.

So enjoy the game while it lasts.

                                                                        Amy xo